lost within my own reality

Author Stephen Levine:"If you had an hour to live,and could only make one phone call,who would you call,what would you say and why are you waiting?" What a powerful message !!

Who knows what we are waiting for?Perhaps we want to believe we will live forever or that "someday" we will get around to telling the people we love how much we love them.Whatever the reasons, most of us simply can't wait too long.And I'm sure...one phone call wouldn't be enough,would it??

As fate would have it,this is what I have to say.For the past few days, seeing my stepdad battling for his life against malaria,it suddenly occured to me that not once have I showed any signs of love or care to him.And even if I did...I didn't make it obvious.Whatever it is, it became obvious to me how important it was for me to let my family and friends know how much I love them.It was a good reminder that there is no good reason to wait.

So yeah...now is the time to let people know how much you care before its too late. Pick up the phone...call someone,sms them and tell them how you feel!!Ah...SMS...wonders of SMSes...hehe.Or even write a heartfelt letter.Say,
"I just called to tell you how much I love you!!" You may be surprised that almost nothing in the world means so much to a person.How would you like to receive the same message??
Do this often and it will become a regular part of your life.Who knows,by doing so,you'll probably begin receiving more love as a result!!

So what are you waiting for my dearies??Time waits for no man!!

If you're wondering whats my answer for the above message..."Well there's just too many people I love and care so much for that 1 phone call wouldn't be enough!!So...I'll probably call SPH..pay lots of money..put my face on the front page and declare my love to everyone!!"hehe...Why??Cause each one of you have contributed to the way I am today...and it has become a part of me...HERA!!

So...urm...wait for what???Call me la!!!haha

Keep the faith!!Thats wat I did.My dad's responding to the dialysis...he can talk now...gripped his hand...responded to wateva you asked him to.Thats great news ain't it?:)So yeah....My life is so full of drama man...but its all good!Cause everything is going good!!haha...Sorry girls if I hadn't replied to any of your smses...just didn't feel like replying la dearies.But once again...thanks for you messages!!Like I said before...I dunno wat I be without you darlings around me.We're like...sisters huh??hehe...we'll stick by each other thru thick and thin!!You can always count on me ya!!Anything at all!!!haha...just like when you're there for me...and I'm there for you!!I'm in sch now...finished telling stories to girly girls....I'm strong huh...I didn't cry...hehe...nah....I can't shed any more tear....but all is going good!!Good Good!!hehe...I guess...thru this experience...I've learnt lots of things abt myself and others.Take it from me:"Never take anyone for granted...cause you'll never know when they be away forever.Always...tell them how much you love them and care for them...whether its conditional or unconditional love!!

I'll be right back...need to go pee now.Tea makes me pee!!!haha

Where' s Nicky??I've seen all my girly girls...miss you!!!hugs!!Eh wait...you girls never give me a hug!!haha

"What wrong with the world mama??"I see my family and friends goin thru difficult times in life...at this very moment.It hurts ...I know.I feel the pain....whether you're in a relationship or not...my dad, he's in the hospital now.Fighting for his life against the final stage of malaria.It was so sudden...and we weren't aware of the symptoms.Lots of things came rushing thru my mind...why?why?why?Then again...there's nothing we could do now...except to encourage him to fight the battle against malaria.Told him not to worry about my mum...its funny...when he was sick at home..he still nagged at us for making too much noise in the morning and waking my mum up.He's still sick and can still worry about my mum.He's still in hospital now...like wat doc said...it seemed that the malaria is in its final stages.He had his blood tranfusion on sat nite...he's now having kidney dialysis...for 3 straight days...as his kidney is infected by the malaria germs.And so is his liver.Now...you may ask...how can I even write in almost vivid details abt this.Well...I've come to accept it...and keeping the faith and hope up!!I've faced reality...I cried till I had no more tears.It saddens me to see my mum hurting...and my siblings."Gotta keep the faith alive till love is found."I thought...if I cried..it saddens my mum more...but I couldn't hold back the tears.MArcus said to me last nite...dun cry in front of those who are upset cause it saddens them more.Yes dear..you're right...I gotta be strong but I"m human...I still need a shoulder to cry on.My mum kept blaming herself...on why she hadn't sent my dad to the hospital early...why didn't occur to her that the fever was too high and inconsistent...I know..in her mind...she's asking all this.I told her..."You didn't know!Its not your fault."

No one can be blamed for wat happened.No one asked for it either.I guess its fate...yes...fate...but this too could be a test to us...how will i overcome...well...I guess...I'll have to wait.

To shan:Take it as it goes...I know it hurts...I feel your pain too...For now,keep yourself busy,occupied...but not too much of it...cause you gotta take care of yourself ya.FAce reality...thats wat I'm doing...it hurts to face reality...but I know...I need to be practical too.KEep that balance.Sooner...its just all go away and things will definitely get better.

To carol:I dunno wats up with you and marcus now.Haven talked to you for long.Just take care of yourself...please dun do anything foolish ya...in general...dun get the wrong idea.NOt dissing you..hope you know that...giving motherly advice la...hehe

To nic:Girl,hope you're having your beauty sleep now...take your rest.

To Sillygirl:ALamak...you're too mysterious la...haha...just take care of urself and girly girls ya.

To nicky boy:Thanks for your concerns....

To the rest of all my dearies...Sam esp...no worries.I'm fine....I gotta be strong.Thank you guys for the birthday wishes and encouragement.Love you guys lots and I dunno wat i do without you dearies.You guys are my support...and I love you with everybit the way you are.

Love,Hera

Fucking damn it...i dunno wat happened to my beautiful blog...all my quotes...my moving word...it all disappeared!!Fuck sia...
okay...I'll need time to revamo this bloody thing.Shit...

With lightness in my heart...just happy!!I dunno why...felt like all the weight was taken off from my shoulder.No more pressure and stress.The event "Viva Fever" went smoothly indeed...though I did think that I could have done better.For the past 2 days...I was so stressed out that I barely had the time to eat...had less talk with girly girls...no lunch with them...just too busy and stressed about the event!Became easily annoyed...ran ard the whole school like a mad cow.Was very bitchy...(wat's new?).I was told by someone that I looked funny when I'm so stressed!He said that I looked like a Kanchong spider!!haha...Anyhoo...to this someone...thks for keeping my cool.Yeah I know..you did tell me that everything will run smoothly ; )
Thanks alot to girly girls and big baby...you know who you are.Thanks for your support and encouragement.Thanks for putting up with a great deal of all my nonsense,inconsideration...rudeness...and all la.Hope you guys do understand that I was under stress and dun wanna be disturb at that time.Shan and Rol...thanks for waiting for me...like you used to like any other day.

So yeah...enuff abt the event...abt me waking up with lightness...hehe...I am happy today.No stress....and urm....hehe...
that someone is infatuated with someone!!lol.That someone...is so shy to give details!!That someone is gonna have smiles on her face everyday.That someone has found a little fren that can tickle her sense of humour.That someone has found a new supplier for her daily...but not so good habit.That someone's fren is so adorable she just wanna slap that someone.That someone is just so glab to be happy and stress free after a long time.That someone...as usual...is mad and bitchy.So who is this someone?You might ask.Hm...Who is that someone???hehe

Great...everything is pulling together now.I've got like 12 vendors now and still counting.So most likely,we'll go up to 16 vandors to the max instead of 14 vendors as proposed.Anyhoo...I really hope that everything will run smoothly and be fun and exciting to see how everything works out on both days of my event.hehe.Ah well...today has been a good day so far. : ) and I hope it will continue to be for the rest of my days in event management.hehe...
So yeah....I met up with a really old fren, Hanis.Man...it was great meeting her.We've got so many things to catch up with.So girl,when is our next impromptu meeting huh?Oh dear lord...I've got my menses today.Damn suay man!!Thanks to whoever invented panty liners!!LOL!!And...I had stomach cramp and had to ask Nicky dear to buy my pinky menses pills!!haha...so shy to give!!!LOL...k la...dun wanna disturb him anymore!So yeah...thats all I have to say for now...except that Joyce is now SINGING!!!She thinks EM is a karaoke lounge!!haha...hm...she's not singing thru her nose...haha.Oh no...she's singing louder!!!!!

HELP!!!!

Hey...wait...guys,my early birthday celebration...lets go zouk/phuture ya??Next SAt...27 Mar 2004!!But do take note of my actual birthday...hehe...its 29 Mar 2004!!Oh oh...I want...sunflower...gucci rush...shopping voucher...gucci handphone strap($80 only)...eh....house at bukit timah...urm...a flat faced cat...hm...the list goes on!!!LOL!!!!No la...joking only...but indirectly...I'm doing it "discreetly"...*hint hint*. hehe

Bye..............!!!

Okay...here it is.Have you guys ever had the feeling...whereby...you just feel really tired?You're mentally tired of all the nonsense on this earth...sick and tired of facing some people.Well...thats how I feel rite now.I'm tired of JJ...tired of Wacko...tired of all the rubbish thats going on in my routine life!!I swear...today...when I reached home...I was staring blankly...stoning...a great show was on tv...but wat do I do??Stare...stare...stare...stone...stone...stone....after that...I went to my room...stone again...and went to sleep.I didn't talk much..I kept quiet.I sat on corner,alone...had my dinner.I know I sound crazy...but maybe,just maybe...I need some peace time alone.For once...I allowed myself to be bored.Hooray!I dunno about tommorow...wats in it for me...but I do know this.Whoever...and I mean whoever!! Tries to annoy me...you'll get it from me!!Dun step on my tail...or you'll be bitten hard...and I really mean it!!!!!These few days...I get easily annoyed with practically everything.I know..."Dun sweat the small stuff." But it can't be helped la.Emo...hehe.I've been keeping my cool...but now...I'm just tired.Bummed!Thank god for all the girly girls and my bitch to keep me saint!I seriously dunno wat I be if not for them.So thanks guys!

Lastly...a word of advice. "Remember,when you point one finger at someone,4 fingers are pointing back at you!"
*To all the intercoursers,if you're that stupid...let me explain the above.You may have the cheek to talk about me...but that also says something about you doesn't it?It says alot about you."To know one is to see them in action with another!"

Okay...I had my say for today.Thank you for your kind attention.Please enjoy the rest of the week.Have fun!!Must have fun!!And lastly...my birthday is coming soon!!So..ahem!!you know la!!LOL

Ciao!

If you're wondering why I named my blog title liquid fanstasy...its because...its my gothname!!As in Gothic name...Got it from a link in friend's site.Anyhoo...Hera Herman...when changed to goth name..becomes Liquid Fantasy.So..there you go!!haha..

Hey!Here's a pic of the people in my last stopover...which was BPOS-B.I'm missing those days now...even those who used to annoy me!!REally!!

I hate the picture...anyway...read out.This sounds like me doesn't it??hehe...Hugs!

light

You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and
self-absorbed, one thing is certain - life with
you will never be boring!

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Its been 3 days since I'm attached to the event management team.Time is really running out.Called one of the vendors who supplies vendors to us today. Sadly...she won't be able to help us.Said something abt...timing too short.So now...we have to source out vendors ourselves.Meaning...we gotta go out...look around for stuffs that we're looking for and and to find out if they be interested to join our LAVA Festival events.And..the worst part is,some "Ms Heng" told us not to give her inventory work to do during the last week of Mar because be busy doin other things.Excuse me....thats your problem to delegate the work for your team and ours.Afterall...we gotta work as the team rite??And lastly...the bad news is...because of this woman, we got to shift the LAVA fast a few days up just so she can help us.WAt the intercourse!!!So now...the EM team...has got to work like a mad cow and stop grazing the grass!!We're left with 2 weeks!!

HEard that val is goin to TRadewinds for a month. Gonna miss her...ever since she's in CRMCC...I've haven got a chance to catch with her trip and stuff.Sigh....Nic's not feeling well again..."Nic...better take care of your health ya.Miss you!" oh...and to my dear Nicky..."A job well done on your success of your SBM Day event!"And to the rest that is reading my blog...keep reading!You dunno how much I appreciate it.Do drop a message in my tag board.

Till then,Love
Hera

I woke up bright and early this morning to follow my mum ,uncle and cousin to JB.We did our groceries shoppin at Larkin and Carrefour.Anyway...I saw something really gross today.While walking thru the wet market...my 'smart' uncle decided to make his rounds thru the meat , fish section.I tell you...its freaking disgusting!Anyhoo...I was walking pass this butcher shop rite...they were selling meat and stuff.You know...where they place the steaks and lamb legs on this metal trolley/shelves...well....underneath it...on the bottom section of it...lies a....ISH... its disGusting to even write abt it!!Okay......I saw a cow's head!!And..I really mean head!!The horns were still intact okay...its fur...its eyeballs...EVERTHING!!I'm not kidding!!Its like they used a super huge chopper to chop off its head!!Make the cow headless!!And...and...besides all the blood flowing out of it...I can see the cow's nerves!!Brains!!YUck YuCk yuCk yucK!!At that point of time...I seriously wanted to vomit!!Oh...I was so afraid for my life...cause my uncle drove like some F1 racer today on the highway and in JB!!Phycho sia!!But thank god I'm still alive,contented and of course...bitching!!

So yeah...topic for today, 'Are instincts true?'Somehow...amidst the chaos I had today...and the whole of my life...I had a really bad feeling.Like...as though something bad is going to happen.I dunno if I'm scaring myself...or just plain worried.I can't help feeling the way I'm feeling now.My mum has gone back to my old house to get her stuff.She went alone.I or someone should have accompanied her.But she said that it was okay...maybe she needed to talk to my dad??I really dunno...but there's this 'intercourse' feeling that just makes me so worried.Afraid something might happen.I dunno if thats it. Or is it I'm missing someone??I really dunno...but I hope this feeling would go away and all would be good.My heart just aches...I want this feeling to go away.Sigh...dun worry you guys.I'm fine...just feeling bothered.Hope everything will be great!!I'm really happy to have moved out.Sense of peaceful has settled in.Just glad!!

I love you guys for being you..and loving me for me!!Hugs...*

I'm still bloody awake!Feeling bloated since my last meal which was like hours ago!I had dinner with my BPOS friends...kinda like a farewell dinner.We went to Marina South for steam boat and bbq!Man...the crabs was solid!!I couldn't help myself!!The prawns...oh man...so fresh and juicy!!They were fresh from the tank.Even when they've been caught,they're still alive!!haha...and I...the mean devil had the pleasure of killing them...more like cooking them.First they were grey...went it started to cook...the prawns started to wriggle a little bit...slowly...counting down to time of their death!!Soon...it turned red!!Its cooked...I started peeling it...its HOT!!Yum yum...its GOOD!!!Oh man...the wonders of cooking!!haha...it made Nicky disgusted!!haha. I started to play with the live prawns...playing with their tiny little feets...haha!!Man oh man...sadist in action!!LOL. Overall...dinner was great.Its so much fun!Its kinda hard to think that individuals that are world's apart are having dinner on the same table!!But I HAVE NO REGRETS!!I have no PROFESSIONAL training!!LOL...okay...I know I sound crazy...must the watermelon I had for dessert!!Oh oh!!I cooked chilli crabs lei....pro rite???haha...but its all good!!It was a great nite...I was laughing like hell man...almost teary eyed!!Till my stomach hurts!!To Lionel,Nicky,Nicole and Liqin....without you jokers...I'll probably...literally die of boredom!!!haha

Where's Val???When is she coming back??CArol has got stomach pain...hope she's well!
May so in love....sigh...when is my turn??

Where is the love???There's only one love!But who???(lost track of reality...someone slap hera pls)

Okay...goodnite...its 310 now...got early morning later.Must conduct briefing for the next stopover!

LADies and GentlEmen!!I, the bitch whom some of you hate or love DEarly will go TO EvEnT ManAgeMent!!I have no regrets meeting you people in BPOS-B...its a lesson learnt!I love most of you lots!!Hugs...but no kisses!!Because kisses blown are kisses wasted.And kisses aren't kisses unless they're tasted!So, I've got a better idea!!"Kiss my ass baby!!It's vaccinated!!" ;p

The day is over. Been doing my report...but was wiped out by the stupid computer!Bloody hell...I finished my flow chart...only left with the written report!Bloody annoying!!
Anyway...val is off to climb the mountain...so its left with me and nicky...my the other half bitch!!haha...Oh Oh...val got me a badge..it says " Naturally Bitchy!!"
Cool!!!
Adios